Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see.

Most of my inspiration to write comes from music. When I'm listening to music certain lyrics just stand out to me. Then I start thinking about what they are talking about. Today I picked out "living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see"  It reminds me of something we talked about in English class last year. The saying Ignorance is Bliss. Now if want to understand this saying fully you need to know the meanings of the words. Most people when they hear ignorance they think rude or self centered. But the word ignorant means a lack of knowledge or education. To be ignorant is to be clueless to certain things. The word bliss is an emotion. Happiness, so pretty self explanatory. So when you look at the saying again Ignorance is Bliss, it's basically saying non knowledge is happiness! Now, in many situations this is true! The less you know, the less you worry, therefore the happier you are. It's sad but true. There is so much going on in our world that people choose to just turn their back to. A good example of this is when you see the commercials come on about sponsoring a child. Those commercials make so many people uncomfortable that they have to change the channel. They were a lot happier when they didn't have to look at how terrible those childrens lives are. Another example of this saying is the story The Cave by Plato. It is a very interesting story, I like it a lot! It is written as a dialogue between Socrates as a teacher and a boy name Glaucon. Socrates begins by explaining this group of people and how for their entire lives they have been chained up and stared at the same wall in this cave. Their entire bodies chained there so their gaze falls directly in front of them on this wall. Behind them is a giant fire and between the fire and the prisoners is a walk way which causes shadows to be cast by people from above. Their only glimpse at reality are these shadows. You might feel sorry for this group of people but, to them they don't see this as a bad thing. They have done it their entire lives so they don't know any better. They think that this is what life is supposed to be like. Socrates continues by asking Glaucan what he thinks would happen if a prisoner was unchained and asked to stand up. To be freed and to go see the world for what it really is. Not knowing anything for its true appearance, only the shadows. What if the prisoner was to be drug out of the cave in the sunlight. Don't you think the prisoner would be angry? Taken away from everything its ever known to see that it is all only a sliver of what there really is. Socrates then explains that the prisoner stays up there a while, starts to adjust and learn things. Finally accepts that what he knew was false, and this world is true. Socrates then asks Glaucan what would happen if the prisoner was to return to the cave. His sight wouldn't be as good in the dark and he wouldn't be able to see the shadows for shadows but for what they really are. Would he dare to free the rest of the prisoners for if they had the hand to kill the man who wanted to take them away from the familiar and into the unknown, wouldn't they?  I love this story. It completely fits the idea that ignorance is bliss. Now going back to the lyric! Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see.  Wouldn't life be so easy if we just focused on what we knew and ignored everything else unknown? The more we learn the more we need to learn. We should never turn our backs on things that we don't necessarily understand at first. It may not be easy to open up and learn and try new things but that's where amazing things can happen. In my life right now I am preparing myself to move away from home to go to university. I am leaving everything behind that is familiar and comfortable to go to a place that right now seems big and scary. It's going to be an amazing adventure and I am so proud of myself for going for it! It will be hard at first but I just have to open my eyes to the amazing opportunity that has been placed in front of me and embrace it. Take it for everything it has to offer and grow and learn from it. Then, when I'm done sucking up all the knowledge there I am going to come back home and teach everyone else, whether they like it or not! =) So living may be easy with eyes closed, but its so much more beneficial to just suck it up and open your eyes to all the endless possibilities! In life you have to work hard for the things you want, and when you succeed the feeling of pride and accomplishment will replace all the struggles you went through to get there!

Sway to the rythm of love!

Okay, so lately I have been looking at my life like a timeline. So many teenagers think that high school is the best time of their life and that it will never get better than the parties and drama! I beg to differ children! Our high school years are short compared to the rest of our lives! I mean sure, high school is a time for self discovery and stupid mistakes, but life goes on and we grow and flourish into adults, and all this crap you are obsessed with doesn't matter anymore! Maybe you can sense a little bit of bitterness? I would like to just make a quick shout out to the people who cause and love drama. NO ONE CARES!!! So what if so and so kissed so and so. WHO CARES if she said this about her but she told so and so not to tell that guy...Confused? Me too, all the time. Maybe I'm just not small minded enough to understand all this crap. People like this make me not want to go out and just have fun. I'm afraid that if I do just let loose and be myself that I will get ridiculed and then the rumors start! Speaking from experience. It sucks. So seeing how this actually happened to me this weekend (I'm not going to go into details because its stupid and doesn't matter) I want to develop a new philosophy to help me just power through these tough times!! After a long day of being stuck in my head with my thoughts I came up with this! I deserve to be happy, and in order to be happy, I'm going to do what I want! Within reason of course because there is always the consequences. But sometimes the consequences are not within reason so I decided I will be the judge of what I deserve when it comes to consequences. I don't have to let people treat me anyway I don't want to be treated! So I'm going to start focusing on my happiness. Just have fun in my last year of high school. Go out with my friends, kiss boys, dance all night and laugh until it hurts. Just really live life! Who cares what people say about me. Clearly they aren't worth my time if they think little of me. Screw them I think! I want to look back on my life and be like HELL YEAH high school was so much fun! I'm just going to live my life with no regrets. So to everyone who wants to try and wreck this for me, try it, I dare you!

Thoughts for the day...

So this morning my dad had to come to my rescue from the snow! Car wouldn't start and the driveway was completely drifted over, and it was
-38 out! So not a good start to my day. Already missed two days of school because of the weather and today I have my grad pictures so I had to come to school!
ANYWAYS lets keep in mind here that it is practically 40 below! When my dad went to gas his truck up for me I was sitting in the toasty truck watching all these pour souls out in the cold! They were all older men and the cold didn't even look like it bothered them at all! Jackets weren't done up all the way, no toque, no mitts and out there chatting up a storm! I couldn't believe this!! Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse, some old man, like probably in his 70's came out in nothing but a little sweater started digging snow out from under his windshield wipers! NO MITTS ON!! And it wasn't just a quick scoop but he really got all that snow out! He was smiling and just doing his thing! Craaaazy people! But now I'm at school and it sucks. Math was boring..we are reviewing for diplomas so I should probably care a little more, but the only thing I can think about in that class is one more week and I will never ever have to do another sinusoidal regression graph again!!!! Next was my religion class and I am absolutely horrible at finding information on the Internet so that was just a battle trying to find what I needed. And now I'm on my spare. Sitting in the drama room aaalll by myself just listening to some music. Couldn't get better. I love this room! Drama class is my favorite class this semester. Except right now, I want to be on strike! We are doing monologues. Where we just stand up in front of the entire school and talk about something straight from memory. It sucks. I really do not want to spend my last two classes embarrassing myself!! I should probably be studying them right now but some kids just walked in here and started singing, so it's way more entertaining! They are singing twinkle twinkle little star....Okay back to my studying!!! I will be back to blog more later!! =)

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup

Today I miss my Gramma =(

Across the Universe has got to be my favorite movie of all time. It's a musical where they redo Beatles songs! Every time I watch it I can't help but sing! Singing is great medicine for the soul! I was watching this movie the other night because I was sad, and while listening I really grabbed onto these lyrics. Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind. Possessing and caressing me. I love these lyrics. My gramma recently passed away and those lyrics really help sum up my emotions. I was extremely close with my gramma so losing her was extremely hard. But at the same time I knew she was suffering and I knew I would always have my memories so I was happy. Happy because she was now in heaven with all her brothers and sisters and mom and dad. It's always going to be an emotional battle though. I've never really lost anyone I was that close with so I guess whatever helps me cope. Music tends to help me through times like this. Same with my older brother. He is an AMAZING guitar player. Whenever he picks up his guitar he holds the power to completely change the atmosphere of a room. He can get everyones attention so quickly and have them tapping their feet or singing along in no time. I'm extremely envious of his talents. When my gramma passed away it was really hard for him, so he too turned to music for closure. He wrote my gramma the most beautiful song. It talks about how we shouldn't worry because she has her wings now and we will all be together the day God gives us our wings. There is a line in the song about me and my gramma, and every time I hear it I can't help but cry. She looks up at her, tells her to carry on.
While my gramma was in the hospital we had the best conversations. She taught me so much about life in those few days. I got a tattoo in her memory. It says believe and has a tree branching out on top. My gramma told me everything is easy, you just have to believe. That word is so powerful. Believe. The tree is to represent my family. How we may bend, but we will never break. I am so proud of my tattoo. Now I know that wherever life takes me, my gramma can be there with me! Comforting me in my tough times, laughing with me and there to inspire me to believe in myself and follow through with all my dreams.  I love you gramma <3

Here I am!

Well, I have never blogged before! I am rather excited! Whenever something interesting, or stupid happens in my every day life I always tell myself I should write it down so it gives me something to think about later on in life. I think this blog is perfect for that! I'm not really sure what to write in my first blog though. I guess I'll just talk about myself! My name is Jesi Paul. 8 letters, and people still manage to mess it up. I've been called Hesi, Haysi, G-si and Jesus! That is something I will never understand. I am in my last year of high school right now and you wouldn't believe some of the stuff I witness there! The drama!! But i will save those stories for another day. Most high school students are determined to graduate and never step foot in a school again. Me on the other hand, I'm going to university to work in a school the rest of my life! I am going to be a high school English and drama teacher. I love to write and act, and I love helping people so I put those together and I figured the best thing to do is to teach people to write and act! Going to university is going to be a huge step for me! Leaving this small town to go to the city! Leaving my family behind to live in a little dorm! Leaving my family will be the hardest part. I am really close with them all! And not just my brothers and parents, but my aunties, uncles, cousins and grandparents! We are just one big happy family! But let's put the focus back on me! I love music. It's a huge part of my life. Apart from writing, its another one of my outlets! Music just seems to enhance any situation. Whether you're driving around with your friends or sitting in your room having a hate on for the world, music is there to enhance the mood! It's like a best friend! There no matter what, and it always says the right things, the things you want, or need to hear. I do believe that this is enough for my first blog! Look forward to writing some more!!