Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup

Today I miss my Gramma =(

Across the Universe has got to be my favorite movie of all time. It's a musical where they redo Beatles songs! Every time I watch it I can't help but sing! Singing is great medicine for the soul! I was watching this movie the other night because I was sad, and while listening I really grabbed onto these lyrics. Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind. Possessing and caressing me. I love these lyrics. My gramma recently passed away and those lyrics really help sum up my emotions. I was extremely close with my gramma so losing her was extremely hard. But at the same time I knew she was suffering and I knew I would always have my memories so I was happy. Happy because she was now in heaven with all her brothers and sisters and mom and dad. It's always going to be an emotional battle though. I've never really lost anyone I was that close with so I guess whatever helps me cope. Music tends to help me through times like this. Same with my older brother. He is an AMAZING guitar player. Whenever he picks up his guitar he holds the power to completely change the atmosphere of a room. He can get everyones attention so quickly and have them tapping their feet or singing along in no time. I'm extremely envious of his talents. When my gramma passed away it was really hard for him, so he too turned to music for closure. He wrote my gramma the most beautiful song. It talks about how we shouldn't worry because she has her wings now and we will all be together the day God gives us our wings. There is a line in the song about me and my gramma, and every time I hear it I can't help but cry. She looks up at her, tells her to carry on.
While my gramma was in the hospital we had the best conversations. She taught me so much about life in those few days. I got a tattoo in her memory. It says believe and has a tree branching out on top. My gramma told me everything is easy, you just have to believe. That word is so powerful. Believe. The tree is to represent my family. How we may bend, but we will never break. I am so proud of my tattoo. Now I know that wherever life takes me, my gramma can be there with me! Comforting me in my tough times, laughing with me and there to inspire me to believe in myself and follow through with all my dreams.  I love you gramma <3