Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Loser like me

So, why do people feel the need to try and make me miserable. Its beyond me. Why do they judge, ridicule, hurt and belittle me? Is it because they are so insecure in their own skin that they feel they need to try and prove to themselves that they are better than me? Well whatever their reasoning may be, I will not let it get to me. I know that I have accomplished so much for myself. I know that whatever I do, it's with a goal in mind. I know that I am a good person who will do anything to see a smile on other people's faces, because no one deserves to be sad.
My life has been so busy lately, full of ups and downs that its been hard to keep a smile on my face. But as soon as I find myself feeling sorry for myself I try to keep in mind that everything happens for a reason. Everything that happens to me is going to shape me into a more responsible person. It's these sort of life experiences that can teach me more about human nature, why people act the way they do. And I can learn from them and shape my life around whether or not I want to be that sort of person. With every negative there is bound to be a positive. So whether it's getting treated like a nobody in high school, or fighting with your parents, or losing a family member, they all help shape who you want to be in life. Live and learn. Things happen in life to teach us who we really are. Be grateful for everything, because it happens for a reason.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Up Means Down!

Sometimes when I think about having to grow up I feel like throwing up! It's just a terrifying thought. I'm having so much fun just being a kid. I have such a good life right now I am afraid for things to have to change! I have the most amazing boyfriend ever and I have the greatest best friend and the most supportive and loving family members! Right now the way I see it is everything is so perfect that if it changes...what if I don't like it anymore!! But, I suppose even if I do get older I guess I don't really have to "grow up". I mean I have so much fun with life. I laugh as much as I possibly can, I show as much love as I have inside me and I have fun in any situation that is passed my way. I think life will be just great if I can hold onto these qualities wherever I end up! The only hard part is leaving the people that make me this happy behind =( AAHH! Life sometimes is just tricky. I think I'm just going to leave this topic alone for a little while longer!